Don’t give up

Don’t give up

the end is here

the end is near

it is dear, so don’t give up

not yet, not yet

I am with you

we move ahead

you and I, step by step

each moment

as it passes by

don’t give up

my love, you deserve much more

don’t give up

your heart is young even now

don’t give up

coz at the turn he stands

your love, with open arms

he welcomes you

by the clouds, he dances for you

he sends you rains

and flowers of rainbow too

don’t give up

I keep watching you through

don’t give up

he comes to you

riding the trails of gold

he comes to you

in sweet victory

so don’t give up

it’s never too late

cause you chose love

above everything else

don’t give up

dear love, I am with you here

don’t give up

ever again.

Your love divine

Your love divine

steers me through

in times of strife

I sing your songs

when pains grow strong

I come to your arms

for sleep and some solace

I turn back to you

in times of my joy

you dance with my soul

and help me see the truth

your love divine

is my daily medicine

the joys of your love

courses through my veins

pulsing my heart

it blooms as a smile on my face

dear universe

you are my guiding star

your love divine

is my breath and my soul

stay with me as I flounder in my path

stay with me and show me the way ahead

stay with me and show me the truth of life

stay with me

You hold my hand

You hold my hand

when I sink deep into sorrow

you help me stand

and reach the stars

you come to me

in my lonely times

and you rush me to

moments of happiness

you let me breathe

and seek my true purpose

you challenge me and

help me see it through

in you I see

a friend for ever to keep

in you I see

a guiding star above

in you I feel

a trust I never felt before

you walk by myside

nudging me to be my very best

you help me find

strengths I never knew I had

You lift me up

when times go churning round

thus I know I have found a true ever friend.

PS: the universe

Covid and localization

Globalization was the buzz word of life until recently, localization is perhaps going to catch up now.

As economies have shut the doors to the outside world, and as distrust due to disease seeps in every corner of the world, people are looking at what is closer home in terms of jobs, businesses, health, travel, somehow the world is now rediscovering what is around them.

The citizen of world, jetsetting continents in style will now take a backseat at least for sometime. Most of us are concerned about health, ours and that of those dear to us and we are afraid to take too many chances.

Definitely, this has hit all of us hard. Parents who would have not batted an eyelid before sending off their kids abroad now think it over many times. Honeymoon couples are definitely reimagining their homes… times are such!!! Tourism industry is up in arms against lockdown restrctions so are other business, the cinema, hotel industry and all every other business is caught in a difficult situation right now.

A young man recently voiced his concern, ‘do I stay back in India or do I go abroad?’, and someone interjected to advice him to take it slow. ‘Struggles are everywhere and struggles abroad are stranger and may take a longer time to overcome, so stay put and find something near you. Surely you are young and when you have found your foothold, you may move abroad. ‘

It is true that we are but victims of the life situations, the social mileu, the zeitgiest, the time spirit and that is changing for sure.

There is a rediscovery of what is available locally and the charm of the imported is wearing off, what does this mean for livelihoods, businesses, is to be seen…

And time will tell.

Caught in covid, the common man is first and foremost concerned about putting food on the table, welfare schemes by state and central government is helping to a large extent,but what of ambitions, of careers, of travels, of dreams are they going to shrink too?

Promise of love

You promised, she told the Sky

who was busy hiding behind the clouds

It’s about time, don’t you think

she tried dropping some heavy hints

hoping him to catch the trend

He though, scratching his chin

and nodding awkwardly

did not want to speak, not yet

Knowing how silences leads to words

and then to long pregnant pauses

she prepared herself to wait

not too long but a bit maybe

So, that day went past in waiting

now the azure sky is back

a half smile playing along his lips

and she is supposed to make sense of nothing

seriously, nothing!

Jigsaw puzzles have held her hanging

far too long, but then

hope for love refuses to die

and searches for a sunbeam in a raindrop.

Watch your desires

‘Sometimes we need to be careful of what we ask for. Life gives you what you ask and so you have to be cautious about what you put out to the universe. ‘

My beloved friend was heart broken at the news of the loss of lives of his dear and near ones in his village. He was far away and could not do anything .

‘I do everything, Lekha’, he said his words aching with pain. ‘I reach out. I call every day and I support everyone but’… the words were washed out in agonised silence.

‘When the elderly at home are in pain, I can only watch from far. That is my tragedy.

You see, I have everything, I am reasonably rich, I have been successful. I have a beautiful family, yet I ache to go back and now it is near to impossible.

My children are of this land. They will never be able to adjust to my state or the ways of life there.

Its like a trap.

I come from a agrarian family. We have always had enough. Yet, once I saw an aunt who had returned from the States. It intrigued me so much that I went to inquire about studying abroad. When that did not materialize, I decided to move abroad for work and that is what I did.

Sometimes I think why it is important for all of us not to be successful. Some of us should be just ok. Ok enough to stay back with our parents. Ok enough to have no high flying ambitions to conquer the world.

At a time when there is a crisis, I can send them money, help, assistance but I cannot be present there in person.

This corona has stung me hard. It pains me everytime I think of it. What is the purpose of my achievements if I can not be of use to my parents in time of their need?

Know what you are asking for in life, Lekha. It is important otherwise you will end up feeling trapped in situations of your own making and will have no way to come out of it. ‘

My dear friend is an empath, he reaches out to all of his friends from school to college and even to their siblings and parents. He does not hesitate to help in kind when needed.

Yet, when he said these words, I realized how life has its own course to run. Another friend of mine, moved back to Chennai a few years ago, and she reasoned, ‘you know Lekha, we don’t get good tomatoes here and children’s education is better there’ . Really, I was surprised, never heard this being the reason for someone moving back to India before!

What would I tell my dear friend then who is in a dilemma, ‘relax and go about life and know that we all have the power to change anything anytime, really!. Trust your instincts’.

At times, I am offered options to move to Canada, USA and other places but seriously, all I want to do is to move closer home, yeah right back to where my parents are!

It is stressful, I agree and surely we can’t stand each other too long but may be I can put myself up at a safe yet close distance!!!

I watch their relief as I am around for a few months, the issues of internet, changing the password, going to the bank, looking up something on internet , the magic of google pay or just staying put and having dinner together. I see how much fumbling or fuming in fury is avoided in the comfort of a younger person. It is something I would not have noticed or thought about. Age does catch up and those who you thought were invincible are humbled by the advancement of years, to some extent at least.

Parents would never talk about it, but when you stay around you watch, you see and understand and probably want to give them the care they deserve.

This is my world. Yes, not everything is rosy here but it will not be so anywhere else as well.

Home is where your heart is.

Find joys around you. Live life as you wish in your place. Yes, it is not easy, but who ever said that life is a cake walk!

a brother who flew

Sometimes sometimes

I think of how you flew

to a new abode

leaving behind the chains

of immobility

threatening your sanity

against the clutter of

noisy sympathies

hands held out half shy

murmurs of affected understanding

wrinkled forehead and many sighs.

Tied to the wheels

you never owned

you chose a flight

to a new home fair

I remember your seething anger

let out in loud screams

ringing out in the streets

a chained spirit

held tight against will

brother I never forget

nor shall I ever be able to

the look of deep anger

you chose not to vocalize

the eyes down in deep despair

you expressed in a cryptic smile

sometimes many a time

brother you seep into my soul

make your home in my smiles, sleeps

and dreams and thoughts, you do

I don’t think of you as gone

though some partings are painful

how we have been together

despite distance is a tale in itself.

Forever brother, forever more

– Chechi

Secret Sky

Sometimes I ask of sky of his secrets

I beg for his attention and his answers

He refuses to share any

Urging me to go finding instead

He holds me straight when I fall

and falls me when I am too stiff

Laden among the tender clouds

that gather swift energy

churning out an inner anger

to course past directions

hither thither everywhere

I ask of chaos and complain

when he asks me instead

to live with chaotic discipline

‘maps reveal themselves

as you proceed’, says he

so seek the insanity

of disorder to find yourself.

the success of a young teacher

My young neice is a first time teacher. Her enthusiasm is palapable so is her nervousness. She is driven to do her best. ‘They should learn right, chechi. They should benefit from my classes. ‘

Eager to make a mark and make a difference she puts in efforts to learn the tricks of the trade. From introduction of a lesson to details about classroom activities to making the class engaging, she is an enthusiastic question bank. Our discussions are as interesting for me as it is for her.

As we discuss, I see in her a glimpse of how I was, fired up to make each class memorable, reading, making notes and learning new words.

Years of teaching has made me confident and comfortable in a classroom, so it will be with her or even better, given her commitment and sincerity to the job.

The fact that she deals with students in a government school makes it even more demanding, she has to constantly consider those who have had no exposure whatsoever to good language. Yet, the teacher is excited and committed and the students are lapping it up, reciprocating the teacher’s enthusiasm in equal terms.

Many years back, I taught at Ganapat Boys High School in Calicut for just 3 months and that experience was an eye opener for the beginner in me. In a classroom of repeaters, I could with some affection and positive remarks generate enthusiasm for learning. I remember breaking in my heart when the kids in the classroom, spoke of their ambitions, ‘I want to be a mechanic’,’I will run a watch repair shop’, ‘I will become a bus conductor’. It looked as if the fact that they had failed a year or two has reduced the scope of their dreams and aspirations. It must have been such a painful experience to go home and be reminded only of their academic failure and be told the same at school. While I was warned of the indifference of the students in the class, I found them very supportive and willing to understand and learn. I guess a little compassion and understanding is all it takes to make a child ‘whole’ again.

It is therefore, touching to see young teachers being so kind and willing to learn and grow, it speaks good for all of us. But mostly I am just happy to witness this process of evolution of the nervous new comer finding her feet and her voice in the class room and her colleagues and students showering praises on her as she does it.

A helping hand and a smile helps anyone, even teachers, yes, more so, teachers because a teacher is in a unique position of being able to give joy to many little guys and girls and that many homes, if you think about it.

Go on then, reach out to a teacher you know and tell him/her of the good work they do, they also deserve a few good words.