You shouldn’t have asked
if the smile she wore was dressed in joy
if the badge she showed around was of love
if the hands that held were of holding
if there were creases beneath the well-pressed coat
if the life was too light or too heavy
if there was light or just an absence of it
if the eyes were darkened in hope or clouds
if there were kindred souls to sit down for a cup of tea
if there was a book to read and a place to rest
if a willing ear lent itself near
if her ‘doubting Thomas’ ever got a cheer
if scrounging was her hobby or need
if hiding beneath the books
if getting lost in the maze of words
if dressing in silence was a choice
if a glance, a hand, a shoulder would have helped
if the wrinkles were of time or strain or pain
if the veneer was losing its sheen
if the heart was skipping many beats
if the lips were sealed in volition
you should never have asked, no, not you!
PS: of love, life and longing