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Stings of love

Sometimes being surrounded with love stings acutely of loneliness

acidic in rancour and bad taste that you keep cleaning your throat

wondering what is the stink and where is it coming from

Then the Waste Land comes floating by singing

‘April is the cruellest month breeding lilacs …’

then you wish for a bit of banter and a little of nudging

but you made it a practice to saunter alone still

the heart yearns for the surety of a company and looks out

thinking the sky must now turn a brighter shade

though it is raining hard and clouds have put the sun to sleep

you wonder of sunny days and how they must be making their way

to a heart that longs for laughter and hangs on to hopes

even desperately smiling coz don’t thoughts become realities

so the cries are forbidden and they come out in soft sniffles

beneath the blankets in the darkness after the blue light dims

then you comfort yourself thinking how half the world is lonely

that is some assurance as lonely hearts sauntering in summer

may run into each other and create nests of banter and boredom

perhaps the mundane is what is interesting after all it is there

unlike the uncertainity of adventure or the quest for what is unknown.

Ah! Love

Ah! love

hold your heart

the morrows come

dressed in blue

trailing clouds sing paeans

to a future that is yet to unfold

riding horses swift and clear

dreams alight to make reality

warm love suffuses surrounding you

spreading cheer and deep radiance all around

till then rejoice for love is now

joy is near and hope sits not too far

build the wishes clear, color them bright

and smile throughout

your eyes so sparkling clear will behold

a world transformed in front of your eyes

till then love, hold your heart

watch your breath, keep the smile in the corner of your eyes

your forehead free of furrowing thoughts

your nights and days light and bright

look often at the azure sky

who bends in brightness

and pours in darkness

oftentimes he brings out colors unknown

to bring you joy in the surprise of being alive

this be wisdom, this be true.

Sky soul

I had not asked the sky to stop by

yet he did being kind

inclined to all things azure

he moved into my soul

he spent some time

clearing a few cob webs

pasting a few sweet smiles

rubbing off a few dark spots

and filling some heavenly fragrances

if nothing, he said

pick up that pen of yours

write, write till you bleed

and then I am there with you

He read out somethings

and I wondered how he knew

he smiled and said

I speak to you in your dreams

I drive away faces dark and fearsome

sometimes I hold your hands as you sleep

kiss away your fears and let you smile

I ask him if I would know him when I saw him

Let time tell you that, he said

and vanished blue.

Morning Fantasies

Coz the pain

didn’t stick to me

nor the hurt

nor the anger

nor the wrath

what stayed with me

is a smile bright and clear

a few hugs here

a few kisses there

of hopes and dreams

of the sky divine

I walk then free

of any guilt

I walk then free

of any hurt

in my hands

I hold my destiny

to turn it here

and to mold it there

coz my best is here

in today I find

a freedom dear

in the now

brightness everywhere

this little caesura

don’t take it hard

its just a break

to stretch my limbs

to soothe my nerves

sing some notes

dance a bit

spread some cheer

hold some dear

so be around

coz much is ahead

you and me

are a pair divine

with sky in between

we will rock the stars

go on be yourself

and then we shall

celebrate our togetherness

we shall meet you and I

in times sphere

now or never

though in our hearts

I am sure we meet

coz how else does

fragrance flow

dreams float

hopes sail

so hold on love

coz we got to meet

there is a time

for everything

and there is a time

for love in life

in my life

and in my space

coz more than ever

I am so sure

of love walking to me

slouching its way to Bethlehem

not some fierce monster

not the second coming

but the gentle love caring and so sure

walking to my present

to celebrate each other

to make a home

to hold a heart

to steer the ship anew

coz you gift me

a moment in time

and then its eternity.

PS: Post listening to Dona Winner’s A moment in time!

Sky in Me

I ask the sky to sit

lean on my shoulder

and allow me to do the same

I ask him to shine a few stars for me

‘no one has done that for me ever’

He turns to me quizzically nodding his head

I ask him to bring a rainbow now and make me bright

He is quiet listening to my pleadings

Looking ahead his wide deep forehead furrowed

His nostrils wrinkled as if he is about to sneeze

He lifts his hand to touch my chin

He picks a Sun drop and lets it sit on my palm

He fluffs a cloud and makes it dance for me

He lets me lean to listen to the song of his soul

Deep deep murmurings of every life form

Mixed in equal portions of love, pain and ecstasy

He allows me a glance into his heart

I see the life forms in a surreal dance of joy

Myriad colours rushing to fit into life forms

the birds, the flowers, the monkeys and the man

He lets me read his lips

I hear his words of deep love that charge the life forms

who turn to his voice, raise their heads and listen intently

He allows me to look deep into his eyes

And I see love, deep deep respect for life forms

I see a glimpse of me and am beyond thrilled

He fits his formlessness into my soul

‘now I am here’, he says, ‘for ever’

And I am smiling again.

Ps: Sky in me

I am there for you- The magical phrase

Anu looked at herself and crumpled into tears, surge of sorrow mixed with joy that tumbled down from her core.

The words that washed over her soul like pure manna from heaven, that kindled her dreams afresh and somehow restored the faith that ‘all is well’.

‘Amma, said Anu has never ever spoken like this to me. Her words now are full of conviction, a belief, a pride and a sense of assurance for her daughter. ‘

This is new, so new to her,said Anu that a lifetime of longing is now being answered.

‘No one ever said that to me before’, said Anu breaking into tears again.

‘All those years, among friends, in family, I have longed to hear it. Sometimes, in desperation I reached out knocking a few doors.

It created in me a fierce self defence, a strong need to stand up and fight and move on and not spare time to grieve, never.

It strengthened me as much as it pained and one learns to live with it.’

Then comes her words, a symbol of her own self acceptance and her confidence which verbalized into a loud and clear, ‘I am therefore you, girl’ and it brought back spring into my life, added Anu.

The power of this statement can never be underestimated, Say it again and again to those around you, your children, your partner, your parents, the cause you believe in , your students, tell them, ‘No matter what, I am therefore you’ and watch how miracles unfold.

When you want to dive deep, you need the springboard to propel you, to cushion you and that is what these words do to the listener, so go on, hold your close ones and tell them again and again, ‘I am therefore you, no matter what’.

Anu loves to say this to her son, whom she eggs to dream big and fly high, explore life in every which way, telling him constantly, ‘Come what may, I am therefore you. Go try, fail, get up, move on and whenever you want come back to me, Coz I am therefore you’.

Being a fierce warrior herself, Anu knows that there is nothing she will not do for her son, anytime, anywhere, how many times over.

Go on, and spell it loud and clear, ‘I believe in you, I am there for you, come what may’.

PS: Mom power, word magic

SKy

Sit

I told sky

who was wandering by

hold, smile, clasp even

he smiled and shrugged

you see, limitless as I am

my time is limited

I wipe the tears

turn on the sun

and shine the moon

to her my lover, the earth

I give my everything

I hold, caress and comfort her

yes, I know you and have noticed you

your thoughts and your yearnings I hear

trust me when I say, I am there for you

and he vanished azure

Ps: reaching out to sky

Sky Vision

sitting at the head of the bed

her back turned to me

sits she, the sky

holding the endless in her palm

her eyes deep deep brown

her hair flowing

a few strands falling across my face

I try to look ahead

she shows me but a glimpse

and blocks a whole lot of my vision

that I think I know

but I know I know not

she has been a puzzle

a dream and a vision

of a life of love and hope

coz what is life

if you know everything

PS: Now is everything

Ping pong

As certain as it seems to get

as knotted it remains as before

life’s yearnings and its many puzzles

push me hither, thither and everywhere

I hang on to deep feelings of trust

sometimes of distrust and doubt

rising out of the pit of my stomach

saying, no, not any more

but the yes, is rare and far in between

as if unsure of the authority of a ‘ yes’

but

why are ‘no’s’ becoming easier than the ‘yes’?

PS: Hither and thither we go