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Yam man Quakes

Beneath the yam tree

sat the yam man

quaking in sorrow

his body shaking

in convulsive spasms

his heart crying out for love

deep love that heals

that holds a hope of a life

an escape from the words of hate

hurled like stones against a tin roof

crashing loudly against the solace of the self

the yam tree smiled bending down whispered

of how she stood against the tall banyans, the coconuts

but always held her own against the blue sky and the storms

a green leaf bent and whispered softly into his ears

‘anchor in self, be thy own lover and gently sway in the breeze of life’

a waft of heavenly iridiscence brushed against his nostrils

‘he hugged the tree trunk, ‘honey, I …… ‘

Dear sky

Dear sky

when was it that you chose to walk into my soul

clear a few dark clouds to park your sunshine

and decided to stay on causing bright smiles

to bloom on a face given to fantasies

peeping into eyes much given to daydreams

and sleepwalking in the mornings

what made you choose me

of all the beautiful lives around

so that tears and joys have since

divided a heart into equal portions

with some mischief and hope thrown in

that I wonder if I am floating by

or just living on

really!!!

yeah really so!!!

so much so that if death were to come by

without formalities of invitation or notice

I might just walk behind head stooped in newbride’s blush

meek and ready, take me, I am yours, I would sure tell him

yeah really

really so!!!

SKY Love

Bending down in one graceful move

the sky streched his arms

to lift up and embrace me

‘this is no warm up exercise’

he teased

‘I meet you everyday, its a practice

I follow

Sometimes you are aware

sometimes you are too lost

I though, notice you everytime’

tears dried up and a voice came

crackling from within in gratitude

he simply shushed me and

held me closer,

‘we look out for you

and I especially so’

I stood mesmerized at his

love that streamed straight

into the deep crevices of my loneliness

where I nursed a broken heart

looking to grow whole

where in the deep darkness

moaned despair and loss

and a hunger for life and living

that I seemed not to know

‘what could satisfy you’

I asked the deep damp hole

‘what more would you want’

the heart was quiet but

not quite satisfied

pushing me to search and search again

for something that I neither found nor understood

but the sky that day was kind and ready to give as

he filled each pore with love azure

a rainbow sat next to me

spreading her pretty skirt

We listened to his songs of love

‘Till you are here, I will keep coming to see you

and then you will be mine forever.’

Your love divine

Your love divine

steers me through

in times of strife

I sing your songs

when pains grow strong

I come to your arms

for sleep and some solace

I turn back to you

in times of my joy

you dance with my soul

and help me see the truth

your love divine

is my daily medicine

the joys of your love

courses through my veins

pulsing my heart

it blooms as a smile on my face

dear universe

you are my guiding star

your love divine

is my breath and my soul

stay with me as I flounder in my path

stay with me and show me the way ahead

stay with me and show me the truth of life

stay with me

Sky in Me

I ask the sky to sit

lean on my shoulder

and allow me to do the same

I ask him to shine a few stars for me

‘no one has done that for me ever’

He turns to me quizzically nodding his head

I ask him to bring a rainbow now and make me bright

He is quiet listening to my pleadings

Looking ahead his wide deep forehead furrowed

His nostrils wrinkled as if he is about to sneeze

He lifts his hand to touch my chin

He picks a Sun drop and lets it sit on my palm

He fluffs a cloud and makes it dance for me

He lets me lean to listen to the song of his soul

Deep deep murmurings of every life form

Mixed in equal portions of love, pain and ecstasy

He allows me a glance into his heart

I see the life forms in a surreal dance of joy

Myriad colours rushing to fit into life forms

the birds, the flowers, the monkeys and the man

He lets me read his lips

I hear his words of deep love that charge the life forms

who turn to his voice, raise their heads and listen intently

He allows me to look deep into his eyes

And I see love, deep deep respect for life forms

I see a glimpse of me and am beyond thrilled

He fits his formlessness into my soul

‘now I am here’, he says, ‘for ever’

And I am smiling again.

Ps: Sky in me

I am there for you- The magical phrase

Anu looked at herself and crumpled into tears, surge of sorrow mixed with joy that tumbled down from her core.

The words that washed over her soul like pure manna from heaven, that kindled her dreams afresh and somehow restored the faith that ‘all is well’.

‘Amma, said Anu has never ever spoken like this to me. Her words now are full of conviction, a belief, a pride and a sense of assurance for her daughter. ‘

This is new, so new to her,said Anu that a lifetime of longing is now being answered.

‘No one ever said that to me before’, said Anu breaking into tears again.

‘All those years, among friends, in family, I have longed to hear it. Sometimes, in desperation I reached out knocking a few doors.

It created in me a fierce self defence, a strong need to stand up and fight and move on and not spare time to grieve, never.

It strengthened me as much as it pained and one learns to live with it.’

Then comes her words, a symbol of her own self acceptance and her confidence which verbalized into a loud and clear, ‘I am therefore you, girl’ and it brought back spring into my life, added Anu.

The power of this statement can never be underestimated, Say it again and again to those around you, your children, your partner, your parents, the cause you believe in , your students, tell them, ‘No matter what, I am therefore you’ and watch how miracles unfold.

When you want to dive deep, you need the springboard to propel you, to cushion you and that is what these words do to the listener, so go on, hold your close ones and tell them again and again, ‘I am therefore you, no matter what’.

Anu loves to say this to her son, whom she eggs to dream big and fly high, explore life in every which way, telling him constantly, ‘Come what may, I am therefore you. Go try, fail, get up, move on and whenever you want come back to me, Coz I am therefore you’.

Being a fierce warrior herself, Anu knows that there is nothing she will not do for her son, anytime, anywhere, how many times over.

Go on, and spell it loud and clear, ‘I believe in you, I am there for you, come what may’.

PS: Mom power, word magic

Taka dhimi Taka JaM, Jam

‘Learning can happen anywhere,’ I reason.

‘What is the need to go?’

‘Here or there, how does it matter?

I gulp the uneasiness in my throat and laugh.

It is difficult to let the bird fly when all you want to do is to hold, hug, hold closer.

‘Little bird, little bird, don’t fly away, not yet, not now’.

But it is true that life has to go on and separation is inevitable.

The little bird has to go, build a nest and make a home.

A new home.

Where you being yesterday, can not make house in tomorrow, so said Rumi.

Hmmm…

Such is life.

Such is living.

Yet hope, keep the hope of love, of belonging.

And says she…

‘Now you don’t need me no, hun!’

‘Adopt, it seems, adopt!’

‘You are mother of all children, that child, this child, her smile, his talk…oho’

‘Ha..ha.. boyfriends also, hun…. What life!’

‘Outings also’

‘hun’

‘Yappa, plans!!!’

‘I want to see where all this goes, how far’

Rolling eyes

Pout

‘Don’t say you are busy, when I call, woman! hun!’

Silence!

Then taka dhimi taka jam

and a purrr!!!